A series reflecting a period of internal fragmentation shaped by personal crisis and collective trauma.
This work marks my first serious engagement with self-portraiture. Two images were photographed at my home, with the remaining works captured at Ilam School of Fine Arts on the day before, and the day of, the Christchurch mosque shootings on 15 March 2019.
Made during the months leading up to a personal mental fracture, the series reflects a period of increasing psychological strain, vulnerability, and collapse.
As the attacks unfolded, the act of photographing my own body became inseparable from the wider sense of shock, grief, and helplessness, blurring the boundary between private experience and collective trauma.
All images were made using a large format 4×5 camera and cable release, a slow and deliberate process that emphasised distance, exposure, and presence at a time when coherence was beginning to fracture.
